GustavoFring279

My dad died seven months ago and I’ve been journaling through the grief. If you can call it that. Mostly I’m just screaming onto paper. The entries don’t follow any logical progression. I don’t move neatly through stages. One day I write about acceptance and the next day I’m furious at him for dying. One day I’m fine and the next I’m writing his name over and over through tears. Some entries are just memories. Things I don’t want to forget. The way he laughed. How he always burned toast but ate it anyway. The last thing he said to me on the phone. I don’t know if journaling is helping me grieve or just documenting the grief. But I do know that without it, I’d be trying to hold all of this in my head, and my head doesn’t have room. If you’ve journaled through losing someone, I’d just… like to not feel alone in this.